I found this quote last night, and it COMPLETELY describes where I am at currently:
Nobody tells this to people who are beginners. I wish someone had told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is a gap. For the first couple of years, you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase; they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative, work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know that it’s normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week, you finish one piece. It’s only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You just gotta fight your way though.
– Ira Glass
I have had a lot of disappointment with myself and some of my projects lately – I was feeling very unsatisfied with how certain projects ended. At times, I have actually FELT the tension of “the gap”. Sometimes it is just nice to know that you are not the only one – that the feelings you have are very normal.
So if you are a beginner, like me, don’t loose heart! Keep doing – keep creating – keep practicing! Keep closing that gap!